You are Ravishing.

My name is Casey Callison. Nice to meet you. I am 23 years old, taking the scenic route through college (unintentionally), and love the outdoors. I'm here to tell you how in the world I ended up writing for an organization that I found out about in a completely random way.

My Christian background is not very extensive. I have really only been a “Christian” for the past 5 years of my life. I always believed in God, I went to youth group when I was younger, but never actually cared to put any effort in until I was about 18.

When I was a senior in high school one of my friends invited me to youth group one night. I said I would go because I used to go in middle school and knew all the tricks to make it seem like I was interested without actually participating until the dodgeball game after the youth pastor spoke. About 25 minutes before I was about to leave to meet my friend at church I was wracking my brain trying to figure out a way to get out of it. The ONLY reason I went with him that night was because I had bailed on hanging out with him the night before. 

So there I am, 3 rows from the front (there were only 4 rows of chairs), trying my best to just get through service without texting my girlfriend at the time. I made it until the end of service and the youth pastor told everyone to split up to pray… on their own. “Ok, easy enough,” I thought. So there I am, just minding my own business when one of my good friends and youth pastor come up and start praying for me. I don’t remember what they prayed. All that I remember is the overwhelming feeling from God that I was called to more.

From that point on the only time, I was all in. Upon graduating high school, I moved on to helping out with the group. The youth pastor at that time got an offer from a church in his hometown where he always felt like God would eventually want him to go back to. This was devastating to me, but I knew I had to push on and step up and be a leader for that group.

You have ravished my heart, my sister, my bride; you have ravished my heart, with one glance from your eyes.
— Song of Songs 4:9

About 2 years later, the lead pastor of the church asked if I would apply as youth pastor. I got the job. I was so excited. I knew this was where I was supposed to be. After ministering to this wonderful group, I felt like God was telling me that season of my life was over. It was very difficult, but I moved on.

So here I am. I know I have a calling in life, but God called me away from youth ministry. I had been praying for God to show me my next step, but nothing came for weeks. Then finally, I was at Potter’s House – a coffee shop in Springfield, Missouri, and in a completely random moment, met this group of young people who were super passionate about God. They began to tell me all about their ministry: Insecurely Movement.  I was hooked. This crazy idea inspired me, and I had to become a part. That’s what brought me here, writing to you. Here I am, sitting in my studio apartment, giving it my all because God showed me his power to answer prayer.

I finally figured out after all these years why I never cared to know God. It bugged me all through my life that I could believe in God, but never feel like I “loved” God. My friends all seemed so passionate, but I couldn’t get that feeling. Then it dawned on me.

I never KNEW God. I had heard people talk about Him, but I never took the time to get to know Him! Think about it this way. You would never commit to a relationship with someone for eternity just from what someone had told you about that person. You need to get to know that person for yourself. You would want to hang out with them, talk with them, and just spend time with them. That is what I never did with God.

Here’s the deal ladies and gentlemen, Song of Songs 4:9 says this, “You have ravished my heart, my sister, my bride; you have ravished my heart, with one glance from your eyes.” This is how God feels about us. Every love you’ve ever felt can’t possibly measure up. Butterflies are nothing compared to the love of God. Roses and chocolate don’t stand a chance.  

                God thinks that you are ravishing. He loves you and wants you to give him your all. Get to know Him. Read your bible. Pray. That is the way that God speaks to us. The Bible has every emotion that God has ever felt and every description of who God truly is. That is how you get to know God. That is where the passion comes from. Speak to him. Give time to him. I promise you, it is worth your while.

I love you all,

Casey Callison

Casey is a new blogger for the His Side blogs. Welcome him to the movement! If you'd like to write for the Insecurely Movement, email us at team@insecurelymovement.